you get everything you want. everyone likes you better. you’re above us all. you’re always the boss. you’re popular. you have nice clothes. you’re prettier. you dance better than me. you sing better than me. you play more songs on the guitar than i do. you always have to be way smarter than me. you’re always right. you always have good ideas. you get al the attention. you have or get more friends. you just do everything better than i do.
when’s my turn?
a lot…
It all started through text. It was the 12th of December 2008. All of this happened during Winter Break. I was texting my best friend’s ex because he’s my ex’s best friend and we were playing this “game”. We were pretending to be a couple to make my ex jealous. Yes, I’m a bad girl. But, I’d do anything just to get the boy I love back. Seems like all the pretending became so real. I didn’t think I’d fall for my ex boyfriend’s best friend and my best friend’s ex. Wow, I thought. I sure didn’t think of going out with this guy. I barely know him. After a few days, we started talking on the phone. That’s how we became closer. When we saw each other at school it wasn’t so awkward. Unlike other couples, they would just text. Texting has no emotion so I begged my new boyfriend to just talk on the phone. We would talk until midnight. Sometimes later. We shared our first kiss.We would have the longest hugs. He would help me with my homework especially math. We even have a future pet puppy named Mumai. We planned on traveling the world together. We did a lot of things together. At his surprise party, he introduced me to his family. I had the nervous but excited feeling. His family are wonderful people, like him. I fell deeply in love with this guy. Sounds corny, but it’s true. He helped me go through all my problems and I did the same with him. I loved hanging out with him. He wasn’t just my boyfriend but he was also my best friend. He asked me out to all these dances and we would always go together but the last dance we went to together was the Winter Ball in 2010. It was on a Wednesday. We had so much fun together. On the next day (Thursday), was the Winter Concert. I had to perform in dance. I had a dance solo. He had front row seats… he didn’t clap. He didn’t watch… He didn’t want to look. He was acting so weird. I asked him what was wrong and maybe I can help but, he wouldn’t talk to me. All of the sudden my best friend pulled me away during lunch and told me he was going to break up with me. Tears just came down from my watery eyes. I didn’t know what to say. I was speechless. After school, my boyfriend told me if we could talk. So, we did. I was crying because I already knew what he was going to do. I said, “Just say it. I already know.” Well, guess what? He said it in tears. “I’m breaking up with you.” Didn’t seem so easy watching it coming out from his mouth. It was the most heartbreaking moments I’ve ever had… We lasted for a year.
A few weeks or months later, I heard he has a new girlfriend. Already?! I guess he found a replacement for me…, I thought. When I heard the news, it was even more heartbreaking. I didn’t want to be around them. I would avoid them as much as possible. I took a vacation in February and went to Hawaii. I wanted to get things out of my head. I came back in March, ready to be strong again. But, this time, I have to stay strong. Although, it still hurts me. It is now May. And it still hurts… A lot. Hearing from al these people “Did you know that your ex’s new girlfriend met his family!? Isn’t that so cute!” Hmph, I wish I could tell them the truth. Although, there’s pain in my chest. I still wish them the best with a forget you.
There’s a lot more to my story.
